Today is my Friday so woohoo! Bring on the EXTRA long weekend!
Today I wanted to share a little about my postpartum body and fitness struggles this first year being a Mum. This is obviously just my opinion and journey but I’m sure a lot of you can relate so here goes…
First of all, I LOVED being pregnant. Aside from the puking, nose bleeds and hormonal rollercoaster of the first 3 months, being pregnant felt very natural and comfortable to me. I loved my pregnant body, I loved showing off the bump and I felt super confident and happy in my own skin (okay could have done without the “bacne” but c’est la vie).
And then I gave birth and felt like freakin’ Wonder Woman! Super strong and capable. I was riding those endorphin waves like a pro and was so proud of my body. I’m not sure if it was because Alfie was 6 weeks early, hence I didn’t grow for another 6 weeks or what but I lost my belly very quick. I was wearing pre-pregnancy jeans a week after he was born and high-waisted “skinny” jeans less than a month later.
I felt AMAZING. but it more had to do with him and being a mum than my body. I still had painful breastfeeding boobs, sleepless nights, acne and all that comes with Motherhood.
I received a lot of “omgosh you’ve lost all your weight” “your tummy is so flat” etc etc and to be honest, as nice as the compliments were, it made me feel SUPER awkward because other than caring for a baby and the occasional walk I had done nothing to “bounce back”. No exercise and I wasn’t eating terribly but I also wasn’t being excessively healthy either.
Don’t get me wrong it was lovely feeling like my old self and not having to stress about my body at this point but I also felt guilty that I wasn’t exercising at all.
Fast forward to March. I was weening Alfie and I swear I gained 5lb the week he stopped breastfeeding. I knew it burnt a lot of calories but seriously!? In April I decided to try the Tone It Up Bikini Series, to get myself back in the routine of exercise because I knew I was getting weaker and softer. I had good weeks and bad weeks but didn’t notice any real changed (hello! consistency is key girlfriend).
I’ve always struggled with staying consistent with fitness but then throw in a baby who wakes up at the crack of dawn and just the “stuff” I needed to do each day, I found it hard to prioritize and MAKE the time to work out.
So now currently, I’m still struggling to make the time, I’m super self conscious about the cellulite on my legs and hate that I feel less like me a year after giving birth than I did 2 months after. And jeeze these post breastfeeding boobies have literally no life left in them…
I’m also nervous that when I get pregnant again, I’ll be starting at an unhealthy state and will struggle more with it all later.
My main reason for writing this post is to share some honest feelings but also hold myself accountable. I’ve signed up for 4 Oxygen Yoga classes this week and I’m motivated to make healthy choices going forward. I want to be as strong and healthy as I can be because I’m happier when I feel strong and I also want to be a good example and motivator for Alfie! Plus Brandon is going to the gym like 6 days a week and I can’t be the slobby wife! (jokes)
What kinds of workouts do you like to do? or any tips for a busy mum? I’m all ears!